miss angie's getaway
as we grow older, as we continue to change with age
there is one thing that will never change, i will always keep falling in love with you
two souls with but a single thought, two hearts that beat as one
i love you, not only for who you are, but for who i am when i am with you

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miss angie's getaway
as we grow older, as we continue to change with age
there is one thing that will never change, i will always keep falling in love with you
two souls with but a single thought, two hearts that beat as one
i love you, not only for who you are, but for who i am when i am with you

- this is the
introduction page, you can back to the main page

- this is about
miss angie, it is all about me

- this is my
story journey, all my blog post, sharings

- this is my
tag page, tag me and talk to me

- this is my
affiliates page, my friends' blog :)

- these are my
memories, my past entries, all here :)

- these are my
desires 2011, my wishlists, my goals

- this is a
heartfelt, dedication page, where i write dedications to

- this is the
miscellaneous page, other stuff :)
Sunday, September 26, 2010 ♥
i have a lot of thoughts in my mind.. and i am penning it down so i can let my 2 avid readers, ying and yun know.. i am not in my right state of my mind.. i had been crying for e past 2 hours.. i have no idea why.. i tend to cry to myself at home, in the bathroom. to stop myself from crying, i slap myself.. i do.. my head is spinning right now.. i cant breathe.. it's controlling me..
during these half a year, my mind had been torturing me.. my heart is torturing even more.. i struggled so much emotionally and mentally.. but i couldnt find someone to understand and accompany me through.. maybe i needed someone who can be there 24/7.. you see, i am just behaving like a kid.. a kid's mentality.. what am i doing.. what am i thinking?
my sister told me after we were at NUH.. we saw many cases like mine.. it's just that i still know how to control and i am not yet admitted to ward 12.. i was down with depression that time but i rejected all sorts of help.. people believe that i am strong enough.. but no one sees a fact that without strengths and encourages, how can i move on with all those courage? my memory is failing me.. and sis adviced me not to be so depressed at times.. but.. i have a thinking.. i rather have dementia.. i rather not remember.. i rather.. i vanish..
i gave myself 3 weeks.. 3 weeks in exact, i will be 22nd.. i will make a final decision of my life.. that's what i share with a friend.. he asked what makes me hold on to a r/s.. i shared with him.. if you used your time to find someone who can be a boyfriend, a soulmate, a buddy, a best friend or even a lifelong partner.. if you had been through so much with him.. how can you let go so easily? if only the past stays on..
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..Love

emo angie 6:58 PM
my desires 2011

to healthier miss angie

slim down xD

attain my driving license

master swimming skills

draw out new business plan

revise current business plan

study new skills at WDA