miss angie's getaway
as we grow older, as we continue to change with age
there is one thing that will never change, i will always keep falling in love with you
two souls with but a single thought, two hearts that beat as one
i love you, not only for who you are, but for who i am when i am with you
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Friday, May 28, 2010 ♥
does all these applies to how you feel? hais :(
happy 15th month to you love.. 其实，这段日子发生很多事。现在担心是否有工作做。而爸爸病了很严重。我很担心。因为爸妈在我生命中很重要，哥哥，姐姐也是。当然，他也是。爸妈好像一瞬间变了。身体突然变了。我真的很怕。前些日子，因为他抽烟和他大吵了。我知道要戒掉它很不容易。我知道烟就像你的命根子，是个你永远都戒不掉的隐。它陪伴你很久了。但，我真的怕失去你。每次你生病时，我都提心吊胆。因为我不知道怎样治好你的病。我真的很害怕。你知道吗？:( 我也知道，只要你过去了那里，我们距离会越来越远。而如果我也开始那里的工作，我们或许也不能像从前，现在了。是时候独立了。谢谢你这日子给我的依靠，包容。。。
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emo angie 4:53 PM
the pessimist in making
it's been so long since i last changed my blogskin. this time round, not the sweet and nice but the dull and grey. back to the same old style..
very much of the emotional me again. disagree with the part that joshua says.. he commented that
people around are getting very emotional.. i do agree that it's unhealthy.. but that doesnt mean people has got nothing better to do.. well.. i dont seek for everyone's understanding to my situation.. but i hope that people will respect my feelings.. for the fact i dont pour my sorrows to anyone.. sometimes, even him also dont know what happened to me.. i dont need to explain what had happened to me down here.. the least understanding everyone can give is not to stop me from being emotional.. i have to say, if you dislike it, dont read any of my post anywhere then. of course, i am not referring to my above mentioned friend.. he is a very optimistic dude and therefore i dont blame him for criticising people who are more pessimistic.. of course he was not against anyone at that moment.. but somehow.. i felt strongly against it.. well.. dont feel like talking it anymore..
had sent my application in.. i hope it works out for me.. if not i have to seek for other paths.. will i be successful? hope so.. well.. 22 years in my life.. this year had been the most fulfilling.. because i learnt quite a number of new skills.. thanks to him. i know how to swim finally but wasnt good yet. i still havent master it and i have a lot to go! i learnt skating but it scare me out of my wits.. damn. i dont know if i have the courage again.. my culinary skills had no doubt improve because i keep experimenting on new ingredients and combinations.. i had been trying to learn malay language and i am still learning slowly!
my reflections? well.. guess i am still the me.. as ambitious as ever.. something lives in me forever.. that is never say die.. many times i force myself to do well.. i dont know where i got all the courage from even when the thing scare me out of my wits.. i was frustrated because he wanted me to learn all these.. but.. guess.. everything is for my own good. if not i will regret not trying out so many things which i thought was impossible.. what's next? do i have the courage to learn driving? well.. not as easy as drinking.. haha. i had quit drinking since my problems or rather old ailment acted up again.. gastric pain acting up often.. and now? i suspect i have throat infection again.
i am really tired.. i am not a pessimist but i have to say.. the nice part about being a pessimist is that you are constantly being either proven right or pleasantly surprised.. prove me wrong.. i need a lot of tender loving and care now.. i am in a very fragile stage now.. i am really scared.. do you still read my blog like the past? i dont know.....
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emo angie 4:43 AM
Monday, May 24, 2010 ♥
so many thoughts to be written down. i am still not sleeping. my mind is tired. gonna go 2 places later. rail mall and king albert park. just in case you guys are not updated, i left my current job.. it was planned. so no worries. just started my short break.. well, as i mentioned previously, i know what i want to do.. the past week, i had been doing closing.. it was so mundane.. last 3 days, really busy. got to handover so many things.. not easy.. for the past almost 7 months with CS, i've grown stronger, emotion and physical wise.. of course, equip myself with more skills. it was a great responsibility for me.. non food, gms, bws and checkout were departments under my care.. the SA(s) there, the cashiers there, were like gems to me.. i dont bribe my staff.. i reward them.. because they worked really hard.. especially my only SA (sales assistant fyi) in my department, din.. i struggled a lot through my journey there.. 1st month, i was with jelita.. struggled so much emotionally.. worried about not being efficient enough for the organisation.. and very much, my brother's face.. well.. it's true my brother recommended me this work.. but i never want people to know who my brother is.. nor i wish to mention his name during my work.. because me is me. i worked hard.. but seems that my efforts are simply being treated like shit at times..
being happy at work, enjoying it are my top priorities in life.. maybe this is why i chose to leave.. well.. it doesnt matter how people are going to say.. like i let my brother down.. i dont give a damn.. at least i am proud to say i produce results and i never let him down..
my last day.. my girls really made my tears dropped. this is crazy.. got emotional.. got the title of customer service manager because checkout was under my care.. if i get complain by customers, this is really a big joke. they told me a customer complained about me in the morning with regards to lost and found.. they say i answered the phone call and didnt keep a bag of grocery well for the customer.. i was completely clueless and they ask me to look at the bag.. i was pretty nervous because I THOUGHT I REALLY GOT COMPLAINED BY CUSTOMER.. and seriously, before tears filled my eyes, i was like "what the fuck". tears rolled down my cheeks.. truly touched.. few people i would like to name.. please allow me..
shawn yeo :p
oh dear.. you guys believe i never call him by his name before? haha. he will be the first person i would to name out of so many.. he had suffered so much from my emotion roller coaster ride.. nearly suffered from depression again.. he used his patience, love and care despite me not smiling at all and being aloof to him.. his advice, his support, his love.. what more can i ask for?
my dear darling. you will be the second i want to thank.. it was amazing.. i feel so comfortable seeing you during my first day.. the first person i engage with when i stepped into rail mall was you.. your smile make me feel comfortable and i enjoy talking to you always.. you were always there.. feeling unfair for me for the treatments i get there.. truly touched.. supposed to leave together with you.. but nevertheless, going to keep in touch with you
lim woon loong aka pig head
yeah. pig head.. you are so irritating at times but you helped me a lot.. thanks for being there when i need someone to talk to during work.. it's a pity that you left before i leave.. so sudden.. wish you all the best (:
all of my staff and the aunties
i shall include fangli also.. i didnt forget how much you tried helping me during CNY when i was alone doing those stocks.. and also, my SA(s) - din, jalal, azlan and azahar.. my cashiers - huechi, nurul, misyah, vijiya, lynn, fazli, suria.. aunties who took care of me and making my moments there happy - auntie gekhuay, huihong, mui eng, mary..
my dear mummie.. things never change no matter what happened that time.. no matter what had happened.. you are still my mummie.. i am sorry.. i cant help you.. i was really touched by your encouragements.. i really appreciate..
this category would include my great merchandisers and bellson from KAP.. jodee from lipex, kim eng from 3M, the dryers wee wee auntie (i am sorry i dont know your name =/) you guys were great.. (:
such a long post.. wanted to talk to some people so much.. juliana, genhao.. had been wanting to plan a cocktail party.. gonna be a private one.. what do i want to achieve? the way people enjoy my art pieces.. (: oh yah! went to east coast park with love last week! he had invited me to skate.. and i was so scared -.- fell down once and he mentioned i started out good as a first timer.. haha. time to get some plans on track! gonna force myself to sleep~
ps* i didnt know my brother stalks my facebook also -.- oh dear.. and of course my sister.. haha.. good nites!
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emo angie 3:00 AM
i'm loving it :)
Tuesday, May 11, 2010 ♥
now, my main concern is my future.. actually, i know where i want to end up. but no doubt, affected by comments and views.. people feel that it's a disgrace for diploma holder to end up there.. i beg to differ.. degree holder also could end up there.. why not me? well, the pay isnt that bad.. i dont mind about the oil and stuff.. i only know it grew up with me.. i love that place.. why did i say i grew up with it? love its food since young.. though unhealthy.. even can go there to study whereby it accompanied me through my "N" and "O" Levels... even my diploma studies, my exams, even up till project work.. knew great people there.. i am sorry guys.. bad at names.. suntec people and not forgetting jec people.. these friends whom i knew.. well, sis warned me how bad it was.. politics everywhere isnt it? current workplace dont seem any better.. i really hope.. i could get into this place! kopitiam, my sis decided for me.. cold storage, my bro decided for me.. the next, i decide myself! wish me the best of luck.. shall send in my resume during last week of work with dairy farm.. (:
diarrhea again.. severe one. but the doctor's medicine POWDERFUL SEH. wahaha. i know lah. powerful~ i ate one time, okay already! well, loves. i am very determined to get in~!
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emo angie 12:23 AM
Sunday, May 2, 2010 ♥
wedding bells.. haha. mummie (yuquan) and daddie (ervine) are finally getting married! so happy for them after years.. next will be xuan and her fiance.. then.. jiejie (adeline :p) and her bf.. wahaha. quite a number le okay.. today was a busy day for me.. hate it when people get into trouble then i gonna clean up their shits for them.. chill chill. so angry! gonna start searching for a new job soon! kor's dog is senile. oh dear. i asked him to open counter on behalf of me.. he asked me to look after his senile dog. lols.
so disappointed today. because people only think for themselves, throw temper, thinking that this will solve the problem and make things faster. when you all grumbles, have you ever spare a thought for others? if you think it's so easy, come do my job then.. actually, i am not obligated to open counter today.. i can really give an attitude. why am i working so hard for? because i pamper you all. pamper till all of you are spoilt.. spoilt till my heartache. fuck. i'm not going to care.. because, i am left with 3 weeks to face all of you. after 3 weeks, get lost.
labor day should be rest day lor. but a very tiring day for me. hais. no mood to sleep. nites
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emo angie 2:03 AM
happy with you (:
Saturday, May 1, 2010 ♥
there should not be any hard feelings if i were to leave. but then, some people just love to find troubles. they curse, they gossip and they have nothing better to do. well, like what i say, all so grown up. one of them old enough like my mum. still bad mouthing about others and criticise people like they owe you a living. well, if you dont stop your sarcasm, then pray hard that you wont get stroke on your mouth and it goes crooked! take it as i am cursing you! i dont care. because it's so nonsensical of you people and get a life!
next monday till wednesday, i am on leave. gonna do so many things. gonna get things right and back. i was mean for these two days. for the fact my fucking attitude is out again. not to everyone. but to those who deserves. like who? yesterday, a receptionist got scolded by me at a clinic in west. shall not name the clinic. nowadays, doctors are so unethical. it says operate to 12 midnight. at 1135pm yesterday, i reached the door, it was locked. i was very frustrated and i knocked very hard on the door. the receptionist didnt dare to open the door and open the window slightly. guess what? she told me it's closed. i asked her what time is it and they are suppose to operate till 12am. well, she told me doctor had left and i prompt her same question again. she told me last registration was at 1145pm. i asked her again the same question. she told me they go according to their own time. very well. i gave her my last words, "this is bullshit!". need a doctor for him yet go 2 places, for nothing. ARGH.
i hope my darling gets well soon. had a fun day with him! haha. few days back went to JB with him. caught a movie there but it sucks. supposed to be thai horror movie but it wasnt as horror as expected. well. went there to shop for stationery. lols. so weird. bought couple t-shirt, and 1 shirt each. wahaha. today was loads of laughters with him. instantly took photos and print it. shall share one photo of us to people. loves.
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emo angie 2:02 AM
my desires 2011
to healthier miss angie
slim down xD
attain my driving license
master swimming skills
draw out new business plan
revise current business plan
study new skills at WDA
it was a struggle, struggling year for us. i will never forget who brought me up. and that is my family. mum, you had been so great. i am sorry that i havent been a very good daughter to you. i love you so much. dad, thank you for raising me up. it pains me to see the struggles you are going through now. but still, i will not give you up.
my dear boy, in my journey with you, you taught me so much things, walk with me, have fun with me. two plus years back, i said, i found someone who makes me feel like a girl, a woman, someone who is like a friend, buddy, boyfriend, husband and soulmate of mine. now, i still hold on to what i say. you are always so sweet and nice. i am really glad that we had chosen the path and that is to walk together.
hey da gui & er gui, it's wonderful knowing you guys. cheers to our friendship, 5 years! though we had ups & downs in our route, but no matter what, i really hope this friendship goes on even as we grow older. thank you girls for giving me encouragements, helps. though we seldom meet, talk, i truly appreciate you people. cheers to our friendship :)
juliana, lishing & qiufeng
i will never forget the few people whom i know during my secondary adventures. juliana, i am glad with what you are achieving now. it's really fortunate to be still living in the same place with you. not like lishing, whom is still in taiwan and qiufeng, in USA but uncontactable.
lishing, my dear sister. you had been wanting to come back to singapore, but dont fret. we will wait for you.. though days spent with you are short, and most of the days are based on letters and emails, i really cherish it as it is not easy to maintain a relationship like this.
qiufeng, i saw your family back.. but it's really sad not to see you back. i wonder how you are doing, i wonder where you are. i never forget the day where we part at changi airport. i miss you, your laughters.
hey love, it's been 10 years since you left the world. how are you doing up there? it was really a big loss for me. but now, i have done you proud. i miss you girlie. i am doing fine. i hope you are. i will continue to move on with my life. and you are always in my heart.
hey guys, you know who you guys are. there's a particular 2 person i wish to mention here though you guys dont read my blog. huifen and norh. thanks for the protection, the care for me. huifen, you know? you are just like the friend i had lost almost 10 years. it was a gift for me from the god. norh, thank you so much concerns, sms-es, calls. i am really glad to have you by my side. it was crazy with you. we can laugh, talk serious, anything under the sun. i am so impressed and proud of you. :)