miss angie's getaway
as we grow older, as we continue to change with age
there is one thing that will never change, i will always keep falling in love with you
two souls with but a single thought, two hearts that beat as one
i love you, not only for who you are, but for who i am when i am with you
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affiliates page, my friends' blog :)
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desires 2011, my wishlists, my goals
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miss angie's getaway
as we grow older, as we continue to change with age
there is one thing that will never change, i will always keep falling in love with you
two souls with but a single thought, two hearts that beat as one
i love you, not only for who you are, but for who i am when i am with you
- this is the
introduction page, you can back to the main page
- this is about
miss angie, it is all about me
- this is my
story journey, all my blog post, sharings
- this is my
tag page, tag me and talk to me
- this is my
affiliates page, my friends' blog :)
- these are my
memories, my past entries, all here :)
- these are my
desires 2011, my wishlists, my goals
- this is a
heartfelt, dedication page, where i write dedications to
- this is the
miscellaneous page, other stuff :)
:( unhappy august
Tuesday, August 31, 2010 ♥
dad hospitalised for almost 2 weeks already.. still undergoing checks and observations.. checked against my own symptoms.. i dont rule out the possibility of ending up like my dad.. i had been having memory loss and difficulty in recalling things.. i had been through depression.. had even tried to cut myself.. had thrown my fist on the wall.. all these.. my family had no single idea.. they only know there was a period where i keep crying non stop, i sleep in the day and i refused to go out for a month.. to a lot of people, my ability in learning and performing is still well.. but i was the only person who is aware that actually it is not.. well, forget about it.. i dont wish to think about it..
completed a month of work there.. my feelings? mixed.. some cultures there i simply detest.. well, what's rest day.. work and just work.. my rest day is pretty stagnant.. running errands basically.. had my eyebrow trimmed yesterday.. guess no one noticed =x cos i always trim it myself.. anyway, doesnt matter.. recently i got to know something again.. this time round.. i gave myself a break from it.. because i am numb already.. and i know where i stand..
had got so much to say.. i am just not ready to commit to anything.. this is what i only know last week.. i thought i was ready.. but my mind told me not yet.. feel uneasy.. feel sad.. i felt so lonely.. days doesnt seem bright anymore..
enough of these craps.. i shall update on my "wishlist". haha. i am in a dilemma.. if i am going to get a refurbished i touch, my phone need not be a very good one.. cos i touch has got all i want.. and i can play my sims 3! haha. seems to be a better deal.. conclusion: i need not get a samsung galaxy s.. wahaha.. i will need a new pair of spectacles.. i will not get contact lens in such hurry.. because i am going to get my hair rebond somewhere end of this year or in january! because very simple.. i cant tahan my curled fringe.. so, on the list currently, i touch, new phone (with plan), spectacles and rebond hair!
wrap up in august.. had been a challenging month for me.. gotten so many burnts on hand.. neglected month also :( sad.. hais.. what will september be like? hmm..
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..Love
emo angie 7:40 PM
Saturday, August 21, 2010 ♥
while he was watching tv, steal a bit of time to blog a little.. recently.. i made him very unhappy.. i felt this way.. maybe i felt too defensive.. i grew strong feelings between love and hate.. i began to make him feel very uneasy.. became too work focused again.. maybe i hurt him again.. when he was playing games, i was alone. when i was playing games.. he was alone.. i am sorry boy.. though i know you no longer read this.. maybe you would one day? it's gonna be his birthday soon.. starting his new journey again.. hope everything will be well for him.. that's all.. hais... T.T
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..Love
emo angie 11:06 PM
♥
“那幸福的笑容，是我所带不出的。为什么在那些回忆里我却看到那些幸福快乐的样子？可惜照片里的人不是我。”
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..Love
emo angie 3:13 PM
:( get well soon
♥
:) hi everyone. long time since i blogged. had been lazy since i started work there. work had been stressful and some sort of enjoyable. politics are inevitable for sure.. actually blogging now with mixed feeling.. this month had been again an emotional struggle month for me.. my dad was hospitalised.. shall not go in detailed.. but hearing him drenched in rain, shivering and seeing cuts on his hands caused by those plants really hurt me.. how can i not love my dad? he raised me up for 22 years.. gave me pocket money.. most importantly, the love.. he may be flirtatious, did things letting my mum down by being unfaithful.. but he's my father.. how can i hate him.. i cant bear to.. fear was in me when he was sick for the past months.. i know he didnt want to agitate mum too.. but i just cant helped to raise my voice sometimes just to stop them.. it really saddens me.. i fell sick.. and he was hospitalised.. hope everything will be fine.. i dont ask for much but him to recover.. i cant afford to lose anyone.. it's not that i cant take it into stride.. but the pain of losing my loved ones is unbearable..
can anyone understands? i feel defensive in so many things.. i feel so vexed.. i feel very upset.. i felt like nothing.. i felt so unfilial to raise my voice at him everytime.. dad.. actually i love you and mum equally.. if you know.. :( i just want to help you celebrate your upcoming birthday.. get well and i will bring you to a nice restaurant to eat.. that's my pact for you.. please.. get well :(
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..Love
emo angie 12:45 AM
my desires 2011
to healthier miss angie
slim down xD
attain my driving license
master swimming skills
draw out new business plan
revise current business plan
study new skills at WDA
heartfelt notes
my family
it was a struggle, struggling year for us. i will never forget who brought me up. and that is my family. mum, you had been so great. i am sorry that i havent been a very good daughter to you. i love you so much. dad, thank you for raising me up. it pains me to see the struggles you are going through now. but still, i will not give you up.
shawn yeo
my dear boy, in my journey with you, you taught me so much things, walk with me, have fun with me. two plus years back, i said, i found someone who makes me feel like a girl, a woman, someone who is like a friend, buddy, boyfriend, husband and soulmate of mine. now, i still hold on to what i say. you are always so sweet and nice. i am really glad that we had chosen the path and that is to walk together.
guigui family
hey da gui & er gui, it's wonderful knowing you guys. cheers to our friendship, 5 years! though we had ups & downs in our route, but no matter what, i really hope this friendship goes on even as we grow older. thank you girls for giving me encouragements, helps. though we seldom meet, talk, i truly appreciate you people. cheers to our friendship :)
juliana, lishing & qiufeng
i will never forget the few people whom i know during my secondary adventures. juliana, i am glad with what you are achieving now. it's really fortunate to be still living in the same place with you. not like lishing, whom is still in taiwan and qiufeng, in USA but uncontactable.
lishing, my dear sister. you had been wanting to come back to singapore, but dont fret. we will wait for you.. though days spent with you are short, and most of the days are based on letters and emails, i really cherish it as it is not easy to maintain a relationship like this.
qiufeng, i saw your family back.. but it's really sad not to see you back. i wonder how you are doing, i wonder where you are. i never forget the day where we part at changi airport. i miss you, your laughters.
qianying
hey love, it's been 10 years since you left the world. how are you doing up there? it was really a big loss for me. but now, i have done you proud. i miss you girlie. i am doing fine. i hope you are. i will continue to move on with my life. and you are always in my heart.
bsmc mates
hey guys, you know who you guys are. there's a particular 2 person i wish to mention here though you guys dont read my blog. huifen and norh. thanks for the protection, the care for me. huifen, you know? you are just like the friend i had lost almost 10 years. it was a gift for me from the god. norh, thank you so much concerns, sms-es, calls. i am really glad to have you by my side. it was crazy with you. we can laugh, talk serious, anything under the sun. i am so impressed and proud of you. :)
