to the brother who used to be my 开心果. this is gonna be the first and also the last post for you. it's affinity who brought us together as friends and also affinity had created wonderful memories between us. from a complaint to your store, to where we are now, friends.. it's somehow wonderful because if i had never ever waited for someone to knock off almost everyday, i wouldnt have known you and of course other people there. like the name i used to give you, you never failed to make a smile on my face and it used to be really sweet. it's somehow also a pity that we cant be together due to so many reasons.. when you told me i was unfair to you, i decided to pen this down specially for you.. maybe that time, you came at the right time, gave me the right feeling.. i admit i had once like you but it always felt like a fling. nothing else.. i know you tried changing for me too but what i want is someone whom i can share my life with..

the appearance of my current beau had somehow affect our friendship adversely.. it's not that i didnt give us any chance.. i gave ourselves a few.. it's just that we never grab hold of it.. to you, i may be wishy-washy that time, i didn't give that relationship up for you but him.. we cannot deny that during that period, it felt like a fling or rather i consider as flirting? to be frank, i dread this kind of relationship if you had felt it that time.. it is not that i keep on pushing you to other girls but i rather you find someone else who is suitable for you, who is not attached.. i trust that you are sensible enough to think.. if i were to be with you, i guess it will hurt both of us. because i know it's not true feelings.. but a feel of impulse.. i am penning this down not because i want anything back.. but just a platonic friendship to be salvaged..

i am grateful that we still stay as very good friends.. and not like other guys, you still talk to me like a very good friend.. i am sorry that during that period of time i had to give up in contacting you because i really dont want any unnecessary troubles.. we didnt meet up for almost a year already. and few days back, the meeting up was really making me worry.. but you didnt make me feel uneasy. you had been a very good brother to me and i am thankful for it. thanks for everything.. including your blessings too. i hope you find one soon :)