愿意像傻瓜一样等你，是因为担心你，想见你一面。哭不是因为恨你，而是因为太在乎你，不能失去你。再怎么生气，收到你的信息，你就像灭火器，把我定下来 my willingness to wait for you like a fool, is because i was worried about you and wanted to see you once more. when tears flowed, it's not because i have resentment in you, it's because i care for you a lot and i can't lose you. no matter how angry i am, when i received your message, you are like a fire extinguisher and cool me down..

just got home not long. actually wanted to sleep. but can't. decide to come online.. write about how i feel since he's sleeping soundly at home.

dont know what happened to me.. dreamt about bad things yesterday night. i was quite upset because i felt as if honeymoon period is over and he dont bother about me because he no longer send me sms. but i knew it in heart that's not the case because he puts in so much effort to meet me everyday. but i admit i cant take it the fact that he dont message me.. :( because i wake up with fear last night.. i messaged him i hate him.. because i needed him.. he called me immediately and i refused to pick up. when he finally picked up, we ended it by quarreling. it continues until today..

see his facebook, write he's coughing.. was thinking.. hais. actually my fault.. so, i messaged him and ask if he's still coughing. waited for hours.. he didnt reply. didnt call him after my work.. because i was also disappointed. basically, dont have mood for the whole day. he posted on facebook, saying he's waiting for someone to call.. but i didnt call him still. messaged him instead. he said he's waiting for someone to appear but she didn't. i went around to look for him.. bought him cough medicine. but he didnt reply.. couldnt get through him, he was on the way up to his house. i thought i wouldnt cry.. but i did. i thought i could let it go suavely.. but i didnt.. i cried all the way.. hais. finally, reached his house. zhenghua became the victim.. actually worried about him but ask zhenghua talk to him.. in the end zhenghua was blamed by me for siding him.. cos i placed the medicine at door step and i waited outside. but he told zhenghua he took the medicine already. and zhenghua insist he had taken it but i saw it still outside. so i was very angry and blamed zhenghua for not believing in me. sorry :( hais. i told zhenghua, my concern for him has ceased and i gave up.. but suddenly received his message asking me where i am etc.. i wanted to buy him porridge but he wanted me to cook for him.. just like a fie extinguisher.. i cooked for him.. hais :(

he told me his legs were numb and had fell down. i was really worried.. really felt that i never take care of him well. before i go, see him sleep so soundly, must be tired bah.. hais.. previous relationship, when i say let go, i dont feel the pain.. but when i say i wanted to let go now, i feel extremely pain.. he's different.. he's not like my previous.. he really let me know what's love.. but.. i cant seem to change for him. know that humans are not perfect.. but.. why am i still such a lousy girlfriend to him? hais. let me be..

one more thing.. someone just poked his nose at things at the wrong time. yes. shiyun, i am referring to your friend. well, me, angie voon knows very well i am chubby or even fat. no need people to hurt my dignity by reminding me. i am not exactly fat till like a hippo. anyway, if you think it's offensive to remind people that he or she is chubby, then dont comment! you dont look perfect anyway. dont be a hypocrite and tell people no offense. well, take it as i am not in the mood to joke or i cant take your HAHAHA jokes. i have never said before i can take people's comments well. so, just zip up your mouth if you think you are offending people. leave some dignity.