dont blame me for scolding you an asshole because you totally deserve this fucking word. it had been a disgrace for me to actually have a past with you. even if we are back as friends, you can see i dont even give a shit. i am telling you now that you had been such a liar and i already moved on with my life 7 months back. i was the one who said i dont want the past to haunt me. so, dont try to use my words and put it in your mouth. ask yourself how much lies have you told. the most ridiculous was that you, in order to make me stay in the relationship, lied to me that you have got cancer and is dying in 5 years. well, it does not hurt at all. because i know and i am glad that i moved on with a guy whom deserve all my love. i seriously think that i've wasted my youth on you, on a guy who dont deserve any bits of my love. i should have heed advices from all and i should have really end it during the first month. if i really end it during the first month, i wouldn't have suffered for 32 months! i am just deceiving myself by telling myself and you, how much i care for those months. if not, i wouldnt have leave.. and you are the one who made things so ugly! i already warned you that i wanted to be platonic friends.. dont complain and say i betrayed you and went for another guy. let me tell you.. i had been in love with this guy for half a year since i met him.. it's just that i told myself not to make rash decisions.. well, it doesnt matter if you read this.. it would be good if you read.. because it's a form of reflection and my last words to you.. and you know what? you are out of my life completely.. and the next time you see me, dont say i ignored you like that time..

miss angie is sick again. sick for the second time of the month =x ever since my last off day, i still havent got my off day. it will be this saturday.. hoho~ received a news that my "old town" will be opened for business next monday. how true is that? who knows. of course i prayed hard it will open after my birthday. haha. will god grant me this wish? my phone was hospitalised for 2 days. i might think of getting rid this phone soon though i just bought it like almost 4 months? i still prefer nokia. maybe i will get nokia 5800. let's see. it will be couple phone if i do =x

one of my darling miss my egg tarts. haha. gonna bake her some when i am free. work these few days was fulfilling but an event happened today.. it made me really pissed off.. because i am not a mighty power woman. i am just an operations executive and you are a restaurant manager.. how can it be i know those things while you dont know? anyway, i am glad i learnt those things at kbox.. it seriously helps.. but it was very disturbing and boy nearly burst out. we are having our dinner and our dinner turns so cold. imagine my cold curry and his noodles turned into flat rice noodles. haha. well, i was very guilty cos i have to call zhiwei up and boy suddenly went moodless in eating.

my first time having ice kachang. though it's still without colorings.. dont be surprised. because i am allergic to colorings.. the ice kachang was with palm sugar.. zZz. i miss the chocolate ice cream ^^ with hersheys' chocolate syrup and peanut crunch.. yummy (: work starts to get more and more challenging.. life gets more and more mundane.. i am looking forward to my birthday because i am spending it with a special someone (: my past birthdays had been so unhappy because i cried.. and i was hospitalised right after my birthday last year.. previous years were doctor and doctor..

boy and i were together for 7 months already! how fast! haha. we cut the same finger and it was like so hilarious! (: october soon.. hoho~ i am looking forward to a new life.. i am waiting for the day to come..