this isnt the first time i am blogging about her.. in fact, i dont even name her as a sister, at least, now. fuck. she finally admit that she reads my personal diary which is meant for him, and she reads my handphone messages. hoho. i knew it.. yup.. she's crazy. someone gave a casual remark saying she's crazy and she got so fed up. well, she said i am helping the outsider. whatever. i drew the line since she wants it. and she wanted mum to stand by her side and she wants mum to scold me too. but when you know mum wants you to stop all these things, you became so angry and you scolded me even more.

you said one day, i will wake up from the dream, say i am blinded by love. come on. i used to hang out till late. and so what if i really changed? does it matter now? any consequences, i will bear. and, you think you always made the right decision in life? you are utterly wrong. if you are really so smart, then you wouldnt have made so many wrong choices. dont always judge people on the cover. i admit i used to cover up for ziyang. but so what? that's my problem. at least, i know what i am doing and i am like you when you are young. trying to control me? please, i wont appreciate you. i've had enough for so many years. from the start, you are wrong. you are wrong to check my handphone messages and even see my personal stuff. dont tell me you are being concern lah. i dont regard you as a sister. you cant even handle your stuff properly. how can you handle mine? you said you will wait and see when i will broke up with shawn. so what? and you said i keep on shielding him. it's the fact i feel so vexed when i come home. quarrels, shoutings and cryings. arent anyone here tired of all these? i didnt shield him by saying i myself wants to be home late.. well, dont blame me for sms-ing brother because i had enough of shits from you. you better keep your words by not bothering about me. mum was being concerned and asked about me. what's your problem now? in the end, you are just like a fly to me cos i dont even care about you.

you all can say i wrote all these out of impulsiveness. but i am not. i had enough and if she wants to come here and read, be my guest. i am not afraid. sisters? funny. since young, you had never like me as your sister. if you want to complain to your husband, go ahead. stop being so paranoid. stop going around to quarrel and have arguments with people. is your life meant to be like this? i think so. i looked forward to the day when you moved out of this house. i will enjoy peace and will be able to go home early.

bitch..